Sickness Spreads

How could you betray me?
I thought I was your one and only
Was I not good enough for you?
Was I not bleeding enough
To saturate your thirst?
You said you'd never hurt me
But now it seems that's a lie
Just like everything else.

You've made my heart cold
You can't come back to me now
I've built up my walls
and I wouldn't suggest trying
I'll likely hurt you again
Like I did today

I've had it with your shit
I wish I could tell you different
I know you'll come back to me
I know you like that
and when you come begging
again
I won't take it.

You lied to me
This whole time
You made it rocky
you made it doe
You made me cry
it's your fault.

I want to kill you
But I know I won't
you've wounded me deeply
over this week
and I'll never take it back
even if you do
cuz it just hurt too damn much.

I wish I didn't feel
So many confusing emotions
When it comes to you
But I can't help it
You've always confused me
I just hope you haven't used me
Because...I'd die.

I can't hate you
I can't love you
I can't do anything
To save you
Not anymore
You've left me
Alone
Without a prayer

And for what?
A guy?
Someone you think would
Be better than me?
Ask anyone
I'm the best thing that happened to you.

Your loss
My gain
I was sick of you anyway.